Sup, college?

SO, I'm copying Bada and writing in this blog still because I need some way to express my emotions, and I'm too lazy to keep a journal. I love it at Augsburg, and my classes are fun AND interesting. I have great teachers who are very forward thinking...and very liberal which is a plus ;]. I just don't have many friends. Going to a small school, it's still VERY clicky. Like, all the jocks go after the jocks. And all of the theater people stick together. And apparantly being a freshman is like having lepracy[sp?] It just sucks socially. I miss all of my friends and seeing everyone happy at college is making me kinda sad. I mean, I'm happy for them, but I can't help feeling that I'm doing something wrong here. But, I'm friendly, I'm active in the community, I participate in everything I should be participating in...I'm missing something. I'm starting to think that it's confidence. I've always been pretty insecure in my body, but being thrown into this completely new world I've tried to make myself less weird in order to make friends...but I'm finding it makes me kind of boring. I really WANT to sing in the showers...but now I feel weird doing it because I haven't for two months. Singing in the showers is just an example of my strange ways. It's just been difficult because the only people I really hang out with are people that I already know. Like, Lauren Butler and Marie Stousland. I was never close with Marie in high school so it's been really fun getting to know her, but something is NOT right, and I hate not knowing what it is. *SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH* I have to write a paper still and it's 12:30 am. Lol, being lazy ROCKS. I wish I would have ahd a room mate I clicked with more....or who stayed in the room more often. She's cool when she's here, but she is NEVER here. Like, not even to sleep. She only stays in here when I'm gone...which makes me sad.